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![]() Testimonials | Letters | News | Rants | Forums | Submit A Testimonial | Front Page Archives | Podcasts | Recent Comments | Live Chat | Printer Friendly Version Ex-pentecostal preacher .: posted Sunday, September 04, 2005 ::: by .:webmaster:. ::: EmailThis! » sent in by Fred Brane I became a Christian, about a year after the death of my first wife, while on active military duty in Kunsan Korea in 1977. The trek through Christianity went from baptist, pentecostal and non-denominational churches. Some of the churches were independents, not affiliated with any denominational organizations. I read the bible trying to figure out what was what, finally found a minister who studied a lot and he taught me how to use methods of interpretation and what resources to use to dig out what was in the bible. He also told me I would not agree with any of the sources totally when I got into the deeper study, and he was right. He made a statement from the pulpit on one occasion, he said "there are four to five thousand errors in the King James version Bible alone." When he made the statement I saw him cringe. He knew what was said was accurate, I found many as I studied myself. I don't think he included the additions, blatant lies and changes that took place over the centuries. These were just plain errors. By the early eighties I was convinced that Christianity was under a self-imposed curse due to its history of murder etc. I continued in Christianity and later became a minister. My views of several subjects ran contrary to Christian theology. The hypocrisy in churches and in the pulpits was a real sore spot with me. I found that most ministers did not study, nor did they know how to study. I also found that they did not have any kind of a prayer life. Later I found that they will cover up for and support other ministers in their ministerial associations that are blatant incompetents and sex offenders, this is in the protestant realm not catholic. The catholic record of cover-up is well documented. The ministerial association I had some knowledge of would also black ball anyone who was a threat to them and their hypocrisy. This was not a painless discovery for me personally. In 1988 I got a fifteen-minute spot once a week on a radio station that had a Christian format. I paid for the spot myself for the five year span. After being on the radio for a while I was talking to a technician at the station one day and told him I had expected more open opposition from the local ministers. He told me that they would not do that but they would pray against me. I was taken aback by his comment but it made sense, I was still very naive. If they openly engage an enemy they have to be able to answer for their own hypocrisy, improper ideas and wrong doctrine. This cannot be done when what they believe is false and is easily disputable. Those who do not study fear those who do. It is easier for ministers to hide behind denominational doctrine than to study for themselves. I helped a young minister start a church in 1988. We were pretty like minded at the time. That like-mindedness changed as time went along. My personal home situation was not good. The lady that I was married to became a Christian black magician. Our views were considerably different. I use the term black magician in the context of using spiritual power to try to control, manipulate or do harm to another person etc. There are many in the church world that fall into this category be it from ignorance or vindictiveness. No one reading this has to take my word for the concept mentioned in the above paragraph. There will, however, be those who know its truth. I stayed with the church I helped start for about two years, there were signs that the situation was deteriorating but I mentally tried to over look the problems. I started a series of messages for the radio broadcast on what happens to the mind of a hypocrite. After three of the series had aired I was called into the basement of the church and charged with preaching the programs with a bad spirit and that I should quit preaching till I got the situation or condition remedied. Because there was a charge laid and a judgment given this constituted a tribunal. It was about three days before I could pull the tapes of the programs to check to see if what I was charged with was in fact accurate. I worked a job and some days I was required to put in as much as fourteen hours. I didn't find the charge to be accurate, so I wrote a letter to those involved to make a defense for myself, in accordance with Deuteronomy 19:15-21. I asked for a meeting to be able to present my case. I felt that the charge had been on the witness of one, this is not proper in such a case. The meeting was granted but I was not allowed to make the defense. I was given a set of papers stating their view as to me personally and I was given an ultimatum to either accept the pastor’s view on a point in Deut.28 or face ex-communication. I opted for ex-communication. The pastor who instigated my ex-communication was the first person to exhibit pure hatred for me, and what was said on the radio programs. I spent six years in the Far East from 1964 to 1978, was in and out of Viet Nam, Thailand, Okinawa, Japan and Korea. I never experienced the intensity of pure hatred from anyone, even in Viet Nam, than I did from this man. When a hypocrite is backed into a corner they will attack, you have brought their hypocrisy out to a point of having to defend it. If I would have been given the opportunity to present my case. The young pastor would have been shown to be the hypocrite, a false witness, and therefore would have had to quit preaching till he got his issues straightened out as he had made the judgment against me; according to Deut. 19:15-21. I was emotionally devastated by the ex-communication. People in the church were told that if they saw me on the street etc they could speak but were not to share a meal with me. There was only one predominately white church where I was known in which I was still welcome, and it was fifty miles away. I opted to go to a predominately African American church were I was not known. I had taught and preached in African American churches in the past and was always welcome and treated with respect. This church was no exception to that; I was shown kindness and respect. After about a year or year and a half I helped an African American start a church. I stayed there and worked in that endeavor for about a year before leaving the area. Tried different churches in the new area, finally pretty much settled in at a small non-denominational church. I was again licensed to minister after some time passed. When the pastor went on vacation I preached two services, which were recorded. After his return I was sent a notice and let to know that I wouldn’t be preaching there anymore. The morning service was on a wounded spirit and the evening service was on covenant. At the morning service the congregation just sat there when the message was over. Normally they would get up and leave immediately. The message evidently touched people. The evening service was in-depth as to the strength of the covenant relationship. Covenant was a subject that I had spent a significant amount of time studying. It was the same problem again; when it becomes evident you have studied, you are a threat. Covenant is a subject that few in the Christian church world have little to no in-depth knowledge. I make this statement from observation and from conversations. Shortly after this last episode with Christianity I knew that I could no longer stay in that kind of an atmosphere. I knew that much of what Christianity propagated was wrong. I stayed for a while not knowing where to go next. Starting my own church didn’t seem like a good option. I had started taking some astrology classes, and things begin to make some sense. I knew why Christianity did not want people to get involved in any of the metaphysical studies. If people understood their own true natures this would eliminate the churches ability to control people through imposed guilt. I had known for several years that the church outlook on human sexuality was totally incorrect. They try to put people into a box where their sexuality is concerned and have them fighting the natural sexual energy. The gross sexual crimes committed by church leadership, by others involved in churches and those influenced by their ideas forced on societies is testimony that their doctrines are incorrect. Religions gross civil rights crimes against women, gays, lesbians, bisexuals and transgendered individuals and any one who thinks differently from their twisted point of view are innumerable My own detox where Christianity is concerned has taken many years and is still not totally complete, but the process is well underway. It started almost at the time of conversion with questions that did not make sense and continued to question areas I considered incorrect. I have had to reevaluate every thing I thought I knew about religion and spirituality. The astrology classes were a major stepping stone for me personally. The hypocrisy I had been exposed to within Christianity and having been expunged from its less than hallowed walls were also major points. I continued to study, I studied other religions, forms of spirituality and metaphysical topics. I discovered that religion and spirituality are not synonymous. There is no common ground. Religion is the greatest dividing force on the face of the earth. Religion has been the biggest murderer on this planet as is well written in the blood of the millions who have died at its hands. We as people have been brain washed into thinking that because something has been around for a long time it is credible. That is not the case, especially where religion is concerned. Christianity propagates and thrives on self-hatred. Those who suffer from debilitating emotions such as self-hated are easier controlled. Christianity cannot survive if people cannot be controlled. The brain washing techniques applied in Christianity are self motivating, people are programmed to debilitate themselves through self hatred and trying to restrict natural human energies designed to make us whole. The self-hatred keeps people off center and they in turn project hatred outward. People who hate are not able to think clearly. Their thought processes are self-restricting. The creative and reasoning processes of the mind are always clouded in such an environment. It was a long time before I figured out why there has been so much murder and mayhem involved with religions. The old testament of the Christian bible records when another people were conquered, their whole populations had to be murdered and anything that had to do with their spiritual aspects was to be destroyed. If a religion has to destroy another people just to survive, it is because it has no legitimacy or authenticity. Whatever god it allegedly adheres too is false if it cannot stand the competition. Through out history anytime that Christianity has gotten a foothold in an area the next move is to destroy any other form of religion or system of spirituality. Over the years that I have studied I have found the Christian bible to be a twisted compilation of myths and stories of older religions modified to suit the purposes of a controlling few. I find nothing original on its pages or in the religion that claims to adhere to its dictates; both I find to be totally illegitimate. The Christian bible is probably the most grossly flawed document on the face of the earth. As history records in blood the Christian bible has been used as the authority to commit the most horrendous crimes, and is still being used to commit more crimes against humanity. Those of us in the deprogramming process from Christianity are survivors of its emotional, physical and sexual death warrants. Our wounds and scars are emblems of courage. We are now battle tried soldiers. Ex-pentecostal preacher, Ex-Christian Fred Williams Arizona USA Joined: 32 Left: about 50 Was: baptist, pentecostal and non-denominational Now: solitary pagan Converted because: was a widower of about a year and was looking for something De-converted because: knowledge, reason and experience email: fredbrane at direcway dot com Add this page to: wrote:
hey i recomend that you seek The Lord Jesus with all of your heart and he will give you the anserws. posted: January 11, 2007 wrote: seems that you had some bad experiances within the church, it also seems after having read your story that you are a fairly smart person,i say that because atleast you did not denie that christ exist,sounds like you went a little off the deep end with your sermons and you could not take rebuke,the fact that you claimed to be pentecostal and studied astrology tells me that although you were studying GODS word you were also trying to be part of a non GOD like world.GOD STILL LOVES YOU AND HE WANTS YOU BACK.YOU MUST SET AT THE FEET OF JESUS TO LEARN.AND SOMETIMES THAT MEANS TO SET UNDER A GOOD PASTOR.LEAN NOT TO YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING.MY BROTHER THAT IS WHAT GOT YOU IN TROUBLE.THE BIBLE SAYS REBUKE A WISE MAN AND HE WILL LOVE YOU FOR IT,AND IF YOU ARE THE BIBLE SHOLAR I THINK YOU ARE ,YOU KNOW THE REST.THERE IS A PLACE OF REPENTANCE IF YOU WILL ONLY SEEK IT.I PRAY THAT MY GOD WOULD RESTORE YOU AND SHOW YOU THAT YOU WERE THE ONE THAT LEFT HE WASNT,PLEASE FORGIVE THE TYPING ERRORS AND POOR GRAMMMAR,ITS 5 AM AND I STUMBLED ON THIS ON ACCIDENT,I WILL PRAY FOR YOU AND I DO NOT JUDGE YOU MY BROTHER,THE BEST DAY IN THE LIFE OF A NON BELIEVER,DOES NOT COME CLOSE TO BEING AS GOOD AS THE WORST IN THE LIFE OF A BORN AGAIN BELIEVER,HAVE A GOOD DAY AND I HOPE YOU FIND THAT TRUE PLACE OF REPENTANCE THAT YOU SO DESPERATELY NEED.I HOPE THAT THIS HELPED AND I WISH YOU GOOD LUCK(ONE GOD)(ONE FAITH)(ONE BAPTISM) posted: February 09, 2007 .:webmaster:. wrote: Posts like the one just before this one are good examples of how computers have become so user friendly that a complete moron can use one. posted: February 09, 2007 wrote: Sir you are exactly right.Even a computer moron can use one,because you fit that profile in a most perfect way.Can only say that no doubt you have proven a theory of mine though.That when you are looking for something supernatural to believe in it doesnt matter to be people with limited intelligance such as yourself what it is.At one point you were on the right track.But now you are involved in something(astrology)that only a moron would consider to have any eternal answers.But you know the truth,its your problem if you got your little feelings hurt because the bigger boys were picking on you about your no doubt rediculous sermons involving pentecostalism and astrology,Suck it up read the bible,repent,and do your first works over.Be a man no doubt after having read your fairy tale .I see the real problem is your bad spirit and bad attitude,but you have been told that before.I dont expect you to accept that because you havent in the past.As earlier stated,rebuke a wise man and he will love you for it,You know the rest.GOD FORGIVES. posted: February 09, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote:
To Anonymous, posted: February 09, 2007 wrote: First the comments that were left earlier were in response to the one that claimed to be an ex pentecostal preacher.So that would imply that he once shared my beliefs.Now that we have adddressed that. I would like to further comment on the statements made by Jim Arvo,To say that you are intimately familiar with any religion would imply that at some point you were involved in some religion.And now you would like to try and make someone believe that you have some how evolved into some more intelligent life form because you no longer claim to be a christian.I am inclined to be believe that you have slipped a little further back on the intelect scale.I do not believe that any person has to share my beliefs to make it to heaven.But to label ones self as an exchristian would imply that you choose to be negative rather than positive,If I am wrong on judgement day atleast I have lived a happy life filled with hope rather than a miserable existence thinking that life is over at death.I choose to believe that I will have eternal life as well as eternal salvation.If I am wrong I will never know HUH? But if I am right I will know and so will you.I have read the bible from cover to cover 6 times,So in response to the comment about believing what you are told does not apply to me,I was a skeptic and that is why the time was spent reading the bible.I do agree that all religions have their problems.And I am not saying that mine is any better.But is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.I love the way I feel when I go to church,I have seen God do a lot of things in my life.I am a sold out beiever.The only thing that I see as false is the absolute rediculous belief that there is no God.But the bible covers that subject too,It says a fool has said in his heart that there is no God .Last of all if anonymous is the name i choose then that is the name i will use.I dont have a lot of time trying to prove that God does exist to someone that doesnt want to believe.There are plenty of people that do.At one time there was a growing number of people that thought that you were less intelligent if you believed in God.The growing number of believers out weighs the non beleivers.Please forgive the bad typing.Most of the time I have the secretary do it.Have a good day posted: February 09, 2007 wrote: There is one thing I am not clear on.This is A question to the people that post on this website and claim to be exchristians,or perhaps the webmaster would like toanswer this,Are you people saying that you dont believe in God,or are you simply saying that you beleive in him but you have a problem with religion,or are you saying that you beleive in him but just dont want to be a christian.My next question is to the one that claimed to be an ex pentecostal preacher,he now claims to be some sort of pagaanist if my memory is right,Isnt that a little strange that a person would stop beleiving in christianity to be a paaganist.I would think that some sort of therapy is in order.I will visit this sight from time to time to remind my self that there are people outside of our circle that need a lot of prayer.To those of you that post here that still beleive but have simply been hurt,you bring to mind a scripture that says A brother offended is harder to win than a strong city.Give God another chance and dont put your salvation in the hands of other people,They will let you down.Only God will never fail you.when you put to much faith in those around you,you will be disapointed.To the rest of you i have the feeling that this blog is a place where you all go to whine and complain about the actions of christians that you have encountered in your past.I think that you are miserable and misery loves company.I have way worse experiences with non christians than with christians.Although I have had bad experiences with both.None the less God is still God and my faith has not waivered.I believe that God could give anyone that reads this the peace that they desire if they only beleive.I know that this is an old saying,I can not see the wind but i feel the effects of the wind therefore I beleive.May God bless and lead each and everyone of you into all truth. Signed Anonymous posted: February 09, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote:
To Mr./Ms. Anonymous, who still refuses to pick a unique name for some reason, posted: February 09, 2007 Astreja wrote:
Are you people saying that you dont believe in God,or are you simply saying that you beleive in him but you have a problem with religion,or are you saying that you beleive in him but just dont want to be a christian. posted: February 09, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote:
I'm going to assume that the post just above my last one is also from the perpetually-anonymous poster I dubbed "Shirley" earlier, so I'll address her accordingly. (I think from now on I'm going to start addressing all Anonymous posters as if they are the same person. If they don't care to differentiate themselves, they why should I?) posted: February 09, 2007 Steven Bently wrote:
Questions for Shirley. posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: This is in response to Steven Bentlys post.Just so Jim Arvo doesnt get confused again.By the way no offence intended but I am quite sure that he is educated beyond his intelligence.Oh im sorry that was atrocious.LOL (just kidding,not mean spirited just think the guy is hilarious)I was quite young when I first learned about God.And I was much older when I began to believe.I may have taken for granted by reading the name of this blog TESTIMONIES OF EX-CHRISTIANS.That this was where ex-christians came to post comments and discuss bad experiances they had encountered.It seems that the one responder to my earlier comments was offended at my assumtion that he had once been a beleiver,After having read all he had to say I am not sure that any one in here is an ex-christian.That is unless he or she has just taken it upon his or herself to be the spokes person for this blog.Now I have a question for you Steven,How old were you when you first heard about God or Jesus?Where did you hear about him? Was it a family member or Friend?And how old were you when(if this appllies)when you quit believing? Gotta be careful how I ask that because Jim said the people in here dont believe in my God.Astreja had commented that he believed that some sort of God like being could exist.If that is a belief commonly shared and Im not saying that it is ,what is that based on.I also may haven good ole Jim credit for some of the comments made by someone else if so im sorry.I dont have time to look back right now.I do not beieve that is important that anyone share all of the same beliefs as I do.But I have been more convinced than ever,espesialy after having visited this blog that God is real.Thanks Jim and astreja.You asked me earlier how old I was when I first heard about God and I told you.You see I spent a good bit of my life trying to prove that he wasnt real.I encountered several people with the same views expressed in here.And then I met one stubborn old retired pilot turned preacher who did more to prove the existence of God than anyone has ever done to prove the non existence.If God doesent exist prove it.You cant say science has already proven that because they havent.Read some of the studies that the New york times have conducted recently.These studies were done by credible physcologist.Also I am sorry for all the mispelled words and typos,I usualy have a secretary do this.I supervise a petroleom plant and dont do much typing.If I have upset or hurt anyones fellings I am truly sorry.I realize the single largest cause for atheism in the world today is chritians.But we arent perfect.And the spelling is atrocious.since I know Astreja is counting I just thought I would throw that in.Signed the mysterious yet still anonymous Shirly posted: February 10, 2007 .:webmaster:. wrote:
I've changed my mind about Shirley. posted: February 10, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote:
Hello Shirley, posted: February 10, 2007 .:webmaster:. wrote: Jim, FYI: Shirley is a troll, as I suspected. posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: whatever happened to free speech moron posted: February 10, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote: To the person who doesn't know how to use the "Other" button, what are you blathering about? This site is filled with postings from people representing many beliefs. Sometimes it goes on and on and on... Say what you will. Sheesh. posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: i would just like to say thanks to the 2 cartoon characters that ive been talking with lately you 2 morons are priceless i love the way webmaster dave places his pigture everytime he post a comment. i cold not have hired pro actors to have played the moron any better than you 2.you should see the widescreen version of your photo dave.it just makes your intellect seem even smaller.we love you 2 jim .if i had 2 choose cartoon character of the year i would have chose jim.but the sports club chose dave the applause was great.i think it was the photo lol so congrats dave you win moron of the year posted: February 10, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote: Webmaster, you say Shirley is a troll? Damn! You could knock me over with a feather. Oh well. At least it was entertaining for me; it got me thinking about rubber bands and Jell-O. Always fun. posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: goodbye for now ill be back though and next time i hope ole jim will post a photo maybe then he will be more than a shadow 2 the mighty webmaster dave i hope you 2 guys arent upset.because there is no way that you 2 guys arent used 2 being the butte of everyones jokes rofl and again guys thanks for the entertainment you were great.and i actualy think i might use the word atrocious a little more.you two really should consider your battles a little more wisely and know for sure that two most of the world your views are ridiculous but it does make for good entertainment lol the mailman won rofl.And by the way guys there relly is a God and that part wasnt a joke and outta app 200 to 250 people not 1 would deny it lol posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: see ya in the funny papers lol posted: February 10, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote:
Hello to the person who doesn't know how to use the Other button, posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: and by the way jim i didnt just find you amusing i found you hilarious in my book you won posted: February 10, 2007 Jim Arvo wrote: I suppose that's the kind of thing one is reduced to saying when one has been completely outflanked. When I said I was amused earlier, I wasn't lying either. However, you have certainly shown yourself to have a very ugly side. Now I just pity you. posted: February 10, 2007 wrote: I think Shirley deserves a new name, closer to Earnest T. Bass posted: February 10, 2007 Astreja wrote:
Anonymous: "Astreja had commented that he believed that some sort of God like being could exist.If that is a belief commonly shared and Im not saying that it is ,what is that based on." posted: February 10, 2007 Post a Comment | Create a Link | Post in the Forums | Permalink Quickly catch up on comments posted to various articles on http://exchristian.net by clicking here. Keep track of comments on this topic with |
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